Saturday, October 31, 2015

Owl City - Good Time ft. Carly Rae Jepsen LYRICS

Owl City - You’re Not Alone (Lyric Video) ft. Britt Nicole (my fav song!)

Surrender and Trust

As many of you know, this last year has been a tough one.  We've moved and started a new life.  It's a scary thing to do.  And I do not like scary things.  But, I've learned so much.  I've been a little scarred, but I've also been shown things that I never would have seen before.  I want to take a minute and share these truths with you.

1) You are never alone.

During this time, I have felt so removed from my friends I left behind and the fine folks I am meeting now.  I have learned that even when you feel desolate and alone (which is usually all in your head) you're not.  God is there and He has promised to never leave you nor forsake you.

2) You are where you are for a reason.

Ok, so I know this sounds preachy! But its so true.  I have already seen so many areas where I could be a blessing and a light if I only get out and get in there.  I tend to be a turtle.  I hide in my shell.  That is so wrong! I am avoiding opportunities that could change and better my life!

3) Be thankful for the hurts.

Recently we, as a family, have learned that thanking God for our trials (our definition of trials, which can sometimes be slightly amusing) Viewing them as blessings, which is harder than it sounds, is such a great way to heal.  Even if it is something that really makes you sad, mad, or hurt.  Thanking God for what you aren't really thankful for is such a wonderful therapy!

4) Taking one day at a time.

I'm a planner.  A huge planner.  I have my future kids names picked out already (now I just need to plan on which guy, which is probably a bad idea) :)
I have tended to freak during these times.  Who will be my good friend now? Should I go to a different college than the one I'm planning on?  What if my friends back in our old town forget about me?  I have learned that just focusing on getting through one day helps me to stay positive.  I only have to think through my getting up in the morning to going to bed at night.  This really helps to relieve the otherwise unnecessary stress I put on myself.

5) Surrender.

I like to have charge of my life and my future.  That's a thought that you have to ditch.  Sorry to say, if your mentality is like that, you are going to be hurt and disappointed.
The thing that I have found as the most important during this time is that I have to give over all my own dreams, feelings, and preferences to God.  I can't hang on to things like that.  I need to just let it go.  And that is so freeing and beautiful, as tough and uncomfortable as it sounds.

I won't lie.  I still mess it up almost every day.  I'm still reminding myself of these truths.  I forget them and make a mess of it.  And I probably won't ever get it completely down.  But that's why we're here, right? To learn and to trust God and know Him better. 

Friday, May 29, 2015

So I know I haven't been on for a while.   But there will hopefully be some changes around the corner! I already added the followers gadget, thingy and hopefully soon this blog will be updated! Thanks so much for reading.  Appreciate you guys. 

Saturday, April 4, 2015

Jesus Loves Me This I Know

Do you ever feel so restless you think that you either have to go skydiving or try to sleep it off?  That's how I've been feeling.  I know God has a plan for my life, I mean I see his fingerprints all over my life.  Without his involvement from my birth, I probably wouldn't be here.  So how can I give back to Him?

I think that recently I've been very happy being a "good person".  Nothing to challenge or break me.  We have a lot of changes going on right now, so I think that has taken a lot of my attention.  Yet, I can't stop feeling this underlying desperation for more.   I have always thought that as a teenager, I have to wait till I'm an adult to change the world.  I was okay with that.  Reading Alex and Brett Harris's book "Do Hard Things" ruined my life.  They said that I didn't have to wait till I'm 'grown up' to change the world.  Totally awesome, right?  So how do I go about changing the world?

It's Easter weekend and it's a reminder of what Jesus Christ did for me.  Growing up in a Christian home the thought that  God loves us has always just been there.  I don't think that I really understood it perfectly.  I just have always taken it for granted.   But recently it hit me out of nowhere, that JESUS LOVES ME MORE THAN I CAN EVEN IMAGINE!  I mean, how mind-blowing is that?

Think of the person that loves you most, for me that's my parents.  For you it might be siblings, spouses, boyfriends/girlfriends, or maybe a friend.  You know that this person really cares about you a lot.  Now imagine that you did something really bad.  It was so bad, in fact, that you go to court and are given the death sentence.  What would happen if that person that loves you stepped in and said "You know what? I'm going to take their punishment so that they can live because I love them and I want them to live."   Do you think that the person you're thinking of would do that?  Would they, literally, die for you?

Someone did.

That was Jesus.  He loves you a million times more than you can even imagine.  That's a lot!  He died in punishment for everything that you ever did wrong, so that you could someday live forever in a perfect place.  But did you know that Jesus didn't stay dead?  He had the power to defeat the power of death and to come back to life.  He has gone to prepare that perfect place and he will come back for those who have put their trust in Him.

I know that this is a big thought.  We as humans can't really actually understand it.  We have two choices, we can either believe it or we can blow it off as a silly fairy tail.   Science says that it is impossible.  It's not.  I obviously can't give you an entire lecture on creation science in one post, but I can tell you something,  God loves you.  The Creator of this massive universe loves you as an individual more than you can even comprehend.   And if we believe this, we will one day live with Him in heaven, without any pain, tears, disabilities, regrets, or people that hurt us.  It's a perfect place.  And it would be my joy to see you there one day.

Because Jesus loves me, I am going give my all out for Him.  You can keep me accountable to that too!  I know I'll have days where I really wish I never got out of bed.  I may never know the effects I've had.  Sure, I'll be discouraged.  Yeah, I'll pick up a couple scars along the way.  But I am going to keep the Crown of Life in sight and I will do my utmost to give all glory to the King of the Universe!

If you have any questions about the Gift of Salvation I will be more than happy to give you any thoughts or to put you in contact with someone who is smarter than me :)  May Jesus bless you abundantly this Easter. 

Friday, January 23, 2015

Inevitably Inadequate

Young girls of my generation struggle with feelings of inadequacy.  I know.  I've been there.  So we try to fix it.  We wear miniskirts and low-necked T's, we try to change our personality, we can't stand seeing ourselves without makeup, and we convince ourselves that God never really cared.  We take selfies, and after photoshopping them to our satisfaction, we put them on Instagram.  Yet, even though we're doing everything that the world tells us to do, we still feel ashamed of who we are.


I mean, we're technically doing everything we're supposed to do.  We're wearing the right clothes, we're dating the right guys, and our activities seem to be prioritized right.  So what are we doing wrong?  These last few months I've struggled personally with these questions.  I'm a pastor's kid, and anyone who's every been a pastor's kid understands the stress that goes with it.  We wonder if people like us for who we are, or if they're just trying to get in with the important people.  We wonder if we're meeting up to everyones expectations.  Every girl struggles with these feelings of not being enough.  And I've discovered the reason why.

We will never be enough.  At least, not on our own.  If we trying, by ourselves, to be the person everyone wants us to be, we will utterly fail.  If we are the person God wants us to be, we will have an inner confidence that will  point others to Christ.  So what does that look like?

What is inner confidence.  Is it wearing longer skirts and higher necklines? Is it limiting ourselves to maybe two selfies a week? Does is mean only dating Christian guys? Maybe only wearing makeup 364 days out of the year?


Inner confidence is something we can't attain ourselves.  It's not a matter of following the right rules or going to the right youth group.  Inner confidence, is the assurance that God loves us, unconditionally.

Think about it.

The Creator of the universe (keep in mind, this universe has no end) loves us.   This being, deity, willingly died an excruciating death so that we could have a life after death.  The God who did amazing, scientifically impossible, deeds to help those who followed him.  That God loves us with a love so great our human minds can't understand it.

And we feel insignificant.  Why? Because this world has told us that beauty is to be reached within ourselves.  They present this description of what we have to do to be beautiful that isn't even possible.  Is that what God expects of us.  God only wants our hearts.  Is that so much to give Him.  Is it too much to give the person who died for us our hearts?

The more we focus our energy on God and less of our energy on self, the more fulfilled we will become.  The less we focus on our physical image and reputation and the more time we spend in quiet with our Creator, the more that inner confidence will shine through.   I know.  I've been there.